LAST DAY!

last day of d month.... so soon sept is over...man time flies... i still remember d new years party... it was just sometime back...phew..another year is around d corner. god knows wat it has in store for me... was listenin to some gud songs on channel V (for a change coz its tough listenin songs as u have to listen to d commercials all d time n dey hardly play gud songs)... n was hummin dem d whole day n was dancin in office.. had gone out for lunch wit a Colleague (not dat i like to go out wit her but was forced to) wanna go out n have real wild time... it has beeen long since i have let my hair down n danced d nite away..... waitin to get out of dis daily routine of work sleep work sleep work sleep........................ n yes lookin forward for Del's weddin.....wil be meetin all my frens der after a long time...met dem all last year in dec for d convocation... n will be meetin dem all now....wil be fun :-)

MEEE BBBOOORRREEEDDDD :-(

Ohhhh me sooooo booorrrreeeeddddd……nothing to doo….how much to watch TV…how much do i listen to music……..yaaawwwwnnnnnn….no sleepppp……awwww ….where isss my source of entertainment…………. Im soooo boooorrrreeeeddddd……soommeebboooddyyyy hheellppp mmeeeee ggeettttt oouuutttt ooffff ddiiissssssss………

EXPECTATIONS FOLLOWED BY DISAPPOINTMENT!

so much for expectations! Hah! why do we expect so much from somebody n den get disappointed. When things don't turn out the way I hoped, it seems like the end of the world. :-( Here are somethings that i can do to keep disappointment at bay -

• Stop. Calm Down. Give yourself some time. Things might not seem nearly so bad tomorrow. (If there is a tomorrow)
• Get your feelings out in a way that doesn't hurt you or anybody else. (Should do this hmm...)
• Talk about it with your parents or a good friend. (Wish I cud do dat......)
• Ask yourself if this is really worth getting angry or upset about. (arrey i am upset coz it is affectin me it is worth gettin angry n upset about)
• Think about what you can learn from the experience and how you can do better next time.(bah so much of a learnin)

MISSING U :-(

Distance cannot, and will not hurt a bond between two people that is based on mutual respect, trust, commitment, and love.
Although you may feel like you are losing faith in your relationship at times, hold fast and trust your heart!
I, like you, truly believe that love & relationships are what make your life special, and that ones built on love & understanding are always worth preserving, regardless of the miles that may separate two people.

Hmmmmm...... some quotes must say....
BUT I HATE DISTANCES :- I JUST HATE IT.......... :-((

NO POST

this post goes directly to my diary :-(

SAD ME!

writin dis from home (my home) :-( .. but still u wud be wonderin why sad?

am d happiest at home :-)) i love to laze around wit my mommy fussing around eat dis...eat dat...why dis...why dat... n all.. my mommy d best :-* love her...
but d topic of my marriage is wat is eatin my head...dey want me to be married by next feb.. wat do i do.. is der any option? all my uncles are tryin their level best to get me married as dey are also aware of my dead line. every time dat i come home or talk to my parents ..marriage marriage n marriage is all dat dey can talk about :-( wat do i do... nobody understands wat i am goin thru :-( nobody here wit me to support me also...im all alone ...feelin so lonely :-(

SOMETHINGS ABOUT ME AS AN AQUARIAN!

hey...dese are somethings about me so dat people don misunderstand me!

LIKES
Fighting for Causes YES
Dreaming and Planning for the Future YES
Thinking of the Past Hmm SOME TIMES
Good Companions YES
Having Fun YES YES YES
Freedom & Independent YESSSSSSSSS…
Honest & Loyal YES

DISLIKES
Full of Air Promises YES
Excessive Loneliness YES
The Ordinary Hmm..
Imitations YES
Idealistic YES


PHYSICAL APPEARANCE:
You are tall with full stature and are quite strong. YES (not dat very tall though)
The face is oval YES
complexion is fair NO
Appearance – charming NO.
The hairs are normally of brown shade YES.
The teeth may be defective YES (no cavities though ;-P)
There may be a mole or scar on the calf muscle YES.

MENTAL ATTITUDE:
You are intelligent and you can see through the motives of a person interacting with you. YES
The character of the person comes in open as a book in front of you after a few meetings. YES
Blessed with a very high level of concentration and understanding, you can easily get to the root of any problem. YES MOST OF THE TIMES

GENERAL NATURE:
You are generally very fixed or somewhat rigid in your views. MAY BE
You will generally have very long term friendships. YES
The Aquarian woman also makes friends with a lot of difficulty but once made, she is always very sincere towards them. SO TRUE
You are definitely not the kind of person who will do back biting and work against your friends. YES
True to your words and feelings you are not only sincere in front of a person but even in his absence. YES
The women born in this sign have a lot of liking for secluded places and may become like a true hermit at some stage of life. NOT SURE AS OF NOW!
You will be drawn towards mediation. NO IDEA
As a Aquarian woman, you will also have a lot of interest in the material life. YES
You may have a nature of accumulation and shall accumulate a lot during your life time. TOO YOUNG TO SAY THAT
You will be a very systematic and organised worker but a bit slow, because you must understand the entire concept before getting to do anything. YES
The strengths and weaknesses of an Aquarian woman are not open so, no one can understand them. The world knows and understands only what you want to make it understand. HOW VERY TRUE

HEALTH:
Infectious diseases, skin ailments, tooth troubles, tonsils and problem with leg muscles are the common problems faced by the Aquarius people. TOUCH WOOD! NOTHING AS OF NOW.
You also have to protect yourself from excessive heat and cold and have sufficient rest and exercise otherwise the body may give some problems. Hmmm…. SHALL BE DONE

MONEY:
Slow and steady in earning money, you can accumulate a lot of wealth in your lifetime. HOPE SO
You will be not running after wealth but wealth shall follow you forever. YES I DON FEEL MONEY IS EVERYTHING
You also have the ability to create organisations and develop innovative systems through which you can earn large incomes. Hmmmm…DAT SOUNDS INTERESTING
Due to your talent and ambition you will earn a lot. But on the flip side , there is always the danger of your getting into the habit of cheating and deceiving the people you deal with. You should be careful of this tendency otherwise you may suffer serious setback. NO DATS NOT ME AT ALL

ROMANCE:
The Aquarians seek refined and intelligent partners YES BABY!
You will be unassuming and will not boss over your partner but being a great student of human nature you will be able to control the other person. DON KNOW ABOUT DAT STILL
In romance, you start a bit late but pick up fast. TRUE
You shall learn very ingenious ways of getting to know men and shall be an expert in making them run around you. SOUNDS INTERESTING BUT WISH IT WAS TRUE
This shall satisfy your ego but you shall choose your man with great care. YUP! I WANT THAT Mr. RIGHT (psst. he has already arrived ;-P)
Once you get serious with a man you shall be totally devoted to him. VERY TRUE
You will very rarely be jealous of other women. YES IM NOT EASILY JEALOUS!
You will seldom have time for such thoughts, but if you find him insincere you can leave him without a second thought. I DO TRUST HIM A LOT
Not interested in sex for the sake of it you can be led into it by lot of patience. WILL HAVE TO STILL FIND OUT ABOUT DIS SIDE OF LIFE!
Gentle rubbing on your calves and ankles will make you ecstatic. HMMM…..

MARRIAGE:
You marry late, but divorces are very rare with Aquarian women. WILL HAVE TO FIND OUT ABOUT DAT YET
Your marriage will be considered as a model marriage. TOUCH WOOD! KEEPING MY FINGER CROSSED ;-)
One, you have the ability to see through your partner and decide accordingly. WOW! Secondly, you are very beautiful. NAH! You can have a charm which will keep your husband tied down to you for eternity. HOW I WISH DIS WAS TRUE!
You are not suspicious, so a mate would have to be boldly unfaithful for you to notice. But once you are sure, you could walk away and there would be no making up. YES
You are faithful and loyal, but must have your freedom to explore your whims and erratic ideas
An Aquarian can handle her home and her children in most unconventional way. GREAT WAY TO PEP ME UP NA!
You may try strange combinations and arrangements and also make them look good. WILL POST COMMENTS ON DIS LATER!
You will be able to handle guests in a most remarkable manner and can talk on any subject on the earth. You can talk according to the interest of the person you are talking to. You can converse with children as if you are one of them and you can talk to an eighty year old as if you are of the same age group. YES

CAUTION:
Changing moods from most elated levels to deep depressions is what causes problems for you. When on a high, you think that the world is in your pocket and that you are a winner and shall remain a winner always. YES
When in a pensive mood, you tend to think that there is no person as wrong as you have been, you do not have a future and so on.... What you do and say during these periods is what puts you in deep trouble. YES I GO DOWN TO THE CORE OF IT
You should control your moods. Keep yourself calm and do regular meditation. Hmmm…will have to think about dis.

Well dis is all about me...SIMPLE SAMPLE!

I DON UNDERSTAND!

looks r deceptive be it whatever...bah...d clouds keep threatenin all d time dat it will pour pour n pour very badly n i keep hopin it would durin day time...but no it just would not :-( n all nite it pours... wats d use of it pourin at nite? i just cant understand...why people go back on their words?...i hate it ...wen u say somethin do it man ...else if u cant, don say at all.. why build up hopes for the other person n shatter it...its bad..
its very bad... its very very bad....

--a heartbroken me

STRANGE AGAIN!

dis time difference between east n west n different countries... i kinda don like it...i feel very strange wen wen talk to somebody who is runnin say some hrs behind us..i somehow feel dey r d children of d lesser god n dats why dey have lost to us in d time game :-P i know dat sounds very stupid but dats how it is...feel very strange wen im workin he is sleepin der coz its night time der mn wen he is workin its night time here...dats still ok d worst is wen we r celebratin gud ol sunday dey r still on a saturday... poor dem ... but i hate d whole thin of time zones n their differences...if god had wished he could have just made d whole world simple... but no...else wat would dese scientists wit their inventions and discoveries be famous for! bah some strange thoughts of mine..... never mind
signin off in one of dose funny confused for silly n nothin reason (basically like dey say khali dimag shaitan ka ghar :-/ noooooooo dat dosent qualify me for bein a shaitan...)

STRANGE!

d moment i logged in today...i was in a very shitty mood...im not a mornin person n today being sunday i have woken up as early as 6 AM! yes it is shockin for me...but der is a reason as to why im up so early :-) was expectin somethin but it din happen :-( no issues!

actually like i said wen i logged in i was in a shitty mood... n den things just started runnin in my mind...sometime i get very restless n impatient...else im a very peaceful person :-P so just stated off writin a mail to my most loveable person in my life (momma, dadda n bro, although they r d most important in my life, der is a new addition in my life!), wen i started off, i was kinda very funny....but by d time i reached to d end of the mail (yes it was a very long one......) i was at peace, sittin like an angel wit a big halo! yes i had taken out all d frustration in d mail...n i was ok...so din bother to send d mail, instead just logged offf..... now u must be wonderin im so fickle minded...but its not like dat....i like to be in a good mood always...so wen im in one of dose shitty moods i just try n frisk d reason outta my life...n d mail just helped me do dat..but i din send d mail as d way i had drafted it would have hurt d person a lot...so i just scrapped d whole damn thin...n im back to being myself...same ol happy go lucky girl :-*

signin off in a better mood

GOOD N BAD

today was good! but bad as i have been sitting at home d whole day!

u must be wondering as ro why gud...but nooooo i wont tel u why....

i hate d lonliness in life..... i do love my space n privacy..but not beyond a certain level...if im at home i love to stay at home n do nothin...but here in PG i call it 6/4. as dats d dimension of my bed n if im not doin anythin im on my bed as der is no other option...so i like to be out of dis place most of d time... n people think dat i love to roam outside...but only if dey understood how i feel...its almost like a solitary confinement sometimes....PG aunt is ok no issues except for d fact dat she gossips a lot ...i have learnt to ignore her.... kirti fought wit her n now has shifted from here.....nidhi my room-mate is good but she is busy wit her life n her frens...so don wanna intrude into her space... its pouring out here...looks like d nature is also very depressed...i love rains but not wen i myself am in a dull mood...

a very dull me

LONG CHAT!

very happy today as gotto chat wit him for a long time.
morning i was trying to iron my shirt n d stupid iron box was not working. den nidhi wanted to iron her skirt dat time it started working, but i din know dat i was so pissed off thinkin dat it was not workin, i smartly went n touched it :-( my left hand index finger got burnt :-(

today a guy from mumbai had come (Kunal), marketing manager, i had to take him wit me to my agencis for the first half of the day. din like him at all. was too ontara kinda guy. went wit him to infantry road to an agency called alpha, der we wer for almost 45mins n den he walked in to safina plaza coz he wanted to get his camera repaired. i was so pissed off. he din find it n we proceeded to race course road. der he spotted a photoshop n got in der. almost 15 mins wasted. den went to excelsior (one of my top performing agents) was der for say 1/2 hour and we wer supposed to go to frazer town after dat but dis man wanted to have corn. so we went all around the town even to cubbon park but den it started raining. somehow i convinced him to get back. on my way back to office i got a call from my frens cousin sayin dat my fren is feelin lonely n was wonderin whether i could come online now. so somehow i managed to get off from dat guy n searched for a net centre, got sify so just rushed into dat. i don have a sify account so had to buy a prepaid card n started off. he was der n felt so bad. my poor baby is all alone der. miss him too. feel so bad wen i pass on d roads wher we have been together, d food joints n all our week end outings , me cribbing dat he dosent give me much attention n all dat, i wanna go here wanna do dis, wanna do dat............d never ending cribbing ...he takes it all so coolly n patiently....
felt so better after i had a nice chat wit him, after dat i spoke to his sister n cousin, both of dem told me dat things wer gonna be ok nothin to worry n all. but still mera dil nahi manta...i wan d time to fly soon to d day he is comin back....

eagerly waiting for dat day

WHY ME?

Its like one of dose days wen u feel so down, don feel like doin anythin, everythin seems to be goin against u... wat do i do wen i feel like dis ..why me??? why me always???????? feelin so low.. expecting somethin from last nite & its not happenin.. no enthu to do anythin. i hate to be in such a situation....

if u reading dis u will know wat im talkin about :-(